no regret life (˘̩̩̩⌣˘̩̩̩ )

hello~ o genki desu ka? :D

actually i should study for my practice exam (?) but i don't get it all and i'm too lazy too XD so i choose to write and update this my lovely blog (´▽`ʃ♥ƪ) since i haven't updated it yet because of my activities (˘̩̩̩^˘̩̩̩ƪ)

well.. someday i took my little sister and my little brother from their elementary school which that means that is my elementary school too XD when i waited on the school's corridor i was remembering my times when i studied in here. The day when i played with my best friend, the day when i bullied by dimas and his friends, when i had fight with nadhiya, sella and others. when i sat on the corner class and had no chair-mate and while the teacher was explaining the lesson sometimes i look over the window to see other's people walks, playing,etc or just staring blankly out the window (daydreaming) hehe XD that's so fun you know~?! i love it ♡ 

because of i bullied by dimas and i had no friend.. because of that, i understand the important of having a friend in live and being strong, i mean girls can't easily just crying because someone make a fun of you or somethin like that. i understand the feeling of being miss 'invisible'. the feeling of being alone. i understand it all.. i don't like it, but i don't know. maybe because i've this feeling for a long time.. i can accept it. but in return, i can't trust people easily and when i trust someone, i can easily not trust she/he anymore. :/

someday.. someone in my class said "iih.. they're so annoying.. they ignore me! i don't like it..!!" well.. how could i say it.. should i say "huh? you just ignored by them once right? you don't like it right? so.. think when you ignore others!" but that's not my problem so i just keep quiet and the important thing is.. i don't care. btw.. that 'someone' is not talking to me so that's why i don't care at all XP

there's no one who wants to be alone.. because no one likes to be alone. isn't it right? but have you ever wonder.. how if you're the person who don't have a friend? if you're the one who was being ignore when you're talking with others? how if you are ALONE? huh.. you never doing it. right? just imagine that you'll not like it.. umm but i think 'sometimes it's better to be alone. No one can hurt you that way' am i wrong? but if you think "its ok.. there's not a big problem" you wrong.. when its really happen to you.. someday you'll hope that you have a least 1 friend to talk to. as for me.. i have one my 'invisible' friend.. she's misaki-chan.. i talked to her and i often talk to my lovely killua.. he's always cheer me up~! i love you killua (♥ε♥ʃ♥ƪ) they never hurt me like others.. even if i had a friend now.. sometimes, i still talk with them. XD its fun talking with them.. you can say anything you want.. you can say somethin that you can't tell to anyone even if your mom. 

umm.. but i don't have any regret about what happen to me in my life. i'm so thankful because of that i've realized so many thing..! yeah.. no regret life ;) thanks to my childhood and thanks for teach me a lot of things.. and miss ya my enemy in my elementary school haha :p

i love my life (˘̩̩̩⌣˘̩̩̩ƪ)