tell me how to be mature enough

Some people and even my mom said that I'm too childish. I like being like a lil kid cause when i was still a lil kid, i can easily ignore the problem, enjoying my life. But now.. Life is getting more complicated each day. A new problem comes when the old isn't clear yet. I can't always ignore that cause it will getting worse if i did. I need to think the solution. The things that i didn't do before. ofc it's when i was still a lil kid.

Sometimes, my childish and immature side of me ruined everything. The things like "its all should be done" is broke if my childish side come out. Well.. That 'part of me' isn't always come out but when it did, i know i'll be really selfish and annoying ppl that they might know (that's what i thought). 

i still don't know how to act like an adult. i mean.. they're always said "grow up.. change ur mind and act. you're not a kid anymore" hello...?? i don't know what's the adult-ppl mind looks like. :/ they just made me think that being an adult is so boring. i know we shouldn't be like 'that' every time and everywhere. we should be wise and show our mature side only in the right or perfect times.

but my problems here is.. i still don't know how to control my self. i don't know how to act like what they want. i don't know how be mature enough. i still find it difficult to know what i want and what i need. still difficult to not be selfish and childish.

i want they (who always told me about mature or things like that) help me. i'm not ask for them to always be there and teach me cuz i can learn from my experience. from the wrong choices that i took. so just show and tell me how to be mature enough... tell me something that i 'passed' when i didn't come to realized 'that'


hmm... seems like i still can't describe everything well. it's difficult to find a right words to describe my feelings. :/